i don't do it enough

I don't like the fact that I take such long breaks in between my blog posts... this needs to change.
Anyways... time to actually share some art this time!
Here is a current WIP I'm working on. Simple portrait of a male, just trying to study the face more. He kinda looks like Jiro to me... so who knows, I may play around with that.
I went to MCA for 2 weeks for a pre-college thing and this evil professor told me I don't "draw enough self-portraits" and that my work looks like it comes from a "magazine." Which to me is translating to anime. Which actually insults me, haha. That's not what I'm aiming for... I want to be a realistic artist. I honestly don't think of my stuff as anime... but whatever. She's biased and has never liked my work for the 3 years that I've known her. So it's straight!!

I'm so busy... college starts soon... I'm ready but at the same time... I want to be a kid forever, haha.
Well, I hope to finish this, soon.

One last thing... I want to change my dA name. I was thinking Mary-Tuttle or something like that... I want to be known for my real name. Not some made up name!! I'm still thinking about it, though.
I wish people would commission me. It sucks that they don't... if only I was more popular. But I've been waiting since 2005 for that to happen...

Peace... outside!

i'm continually changing

Well it's been a long time since my last update... August 9th.
SO much has changed since then. I've pretty much gone through my whole senior year, haha.
I'm mad at myself for not updating this. But that is one thing that will change.

I'd rather this blog be mostly about art but it will have its occasional rant here and there.
I don't have any new new art to show so I thought I'd post a little rant on life. :)

It's so frustrating when you come across a bump in the road and you can't seem to get passed it. And I'm not talking literally.
Why is that one day I'm okay and the next day I'm not? Why is it that the problem I have is not fixing itself? Why is that time feels like it's making it worse and not healing?
Why is it that no one can say anything to help me?
I don't know what to do anymore. I just keep getting up in the morning and continue living my life. Acting like everything is okay, distracting myself to forget for awhile... it doesn't really work. Not really. Because when I go back to being alone it all comes flooding back and I find myself asking the very same questions posted above.
In 1 week will things be different? In 2 weeks will things be different? In a month? In a couple of months? A year? 2 years? I honestly don't know at this point. I mean, I hope things will be different. But a lot of people hope for things. That really doesn't mean anything...
I don't believe in wishing. Wishing is stupid and only hurts you even more. It gets you nowhere. You don't need to wish for anything. If you want something, you have to go after it.
If it's unattainable then there's a reason why. There's some things in life you can't have. I know that but, at the same time... it just makes me want it more.
My brain has given up but my heart hasn't. I don't know what is coming in the future. I don't know how I'm going to react. All I know is I'll just continue living out this cycle and try my best to keep that painted smile on. Until something happens and I can find that feeling again.

Ok! Sorry for the emo post. But I had to get it out. I hope to post some more art soon.
I don't have a lot of time for art at the moment. But once I'm done with school I definitely will.

Peace out, guys!

ro monster challenge

I don't know if anyone's heard of Ragnarok Online.
But I play it from time to time. It's a cute game and I love the monsters.
I then had a thought... why not challenge myself and paint every single monster in human form?
Is ridiculous? Is it insane? YES! But can it be done? I will prove it can.
So this is just a WIP of the first monster, Acidus (gold).
I decided to go with a female figure because I think it fitted the monster better.
For each painting I do, I pick an artist who inspires me and try to incorporate something about their technique.
With this painting, I'm looking at Fabio Barboni's work. (0Effe0 @ dA)
I love his use of color and that's what I'm trying to work on with this.
The color that pops out is the yellow, which I'll eventually have some in the background. I'm using a red and blue/green as my other colors.
I obviously need to blend them in more. I still have so much to do. And I've spent so much time on it already. How frustrating it isssss.
I hope to finish within this month... hopefully.
Won't be posting any more WIPS of it here. I'm going to limit myself to 1 WIP shot per picture. But I may post close ups later...

Peace outside.

PS: There are 521 monsters in the game.

time to blog

I think I've always wanted a blog of my own...but I just never made one. Until now!
It's actually kind of exciting. I hope to keep this updated often, most posts containing art.

I don't have any art to show as of right now but I hope to have some soon!
Check out my completed works on deviantart! www.mistiki.deviantart.com



So my senior year starts August 17th, and I am so ready. Actually, I'm ready for college ha ha!
I really want to go to MCA and I'm currently working on my portfolio. I'll start applying for scholarships really soon. (Even though I should have already started.)
My portfolio will consist of 25 pieces total. I have some pieces already done but still have a lot more to do.
It will have:
9 landscapes
8 still lifes
5 life drawing
3 misc. stuff

And I'll be using different mediums as well.

Well, I think that's it for now.

I'll be in touch ha ha!